i’m hugging all of you so strongly right now. no matter what was going on, liam was such a big part of my teenage years and even twenties. he was such a big part of that band. he had such a big heart. there’s so many feelings i cant even put into words just racing through my head right now. my heart hurts for his family, his friends, the boys god the boys.
we all kinda grew up together with them and to see something like this is ungodly to even comprehend. this is such a dark fucking day. i don’t even know what to say. i never ever ever wanted to ever hear this news and to see it like this on a fucking instagram canva post from ABC news. i’m nauseous.
heart is in complete shambles after looking at geoff payne looking at the memorial and thanking fans and paul higgins being there like no parent should ever have to bury their child this is truly heartbreaking. and paul being there is just so. god they really were all so close and formed genuine relationships with everyone during 1d and that clip in this is us where paul says he’s like the boys’ dad on tour and now he’s about to go bring liam back to the uk. i just. this is truly the most heartbreaking thing ever
Is anyone else constantly going back and forth between disbelief and crippling grief all the while going through life with a constant but sort of quiet sadness in you?
It just… it wasn’t supposed to go this way. He was supposed to get the help he deserved and recover. They were supposed to eventually get back together and rob us all (happily, of course) blind of our life savings for their reunion tour tickets. I was supposed to be able to see him in person, bounding around stage, singing his harmonies and verses, doing mic flips, saying “sing it” and reading silly fan signs. He had so much more life left! He had so much more to do!
This isn’t fair! It isn’t right! This shouldn’t have happened! It wasn’t supposed to be like this.
